I Refuse to Let These Motherfuckers Win

We are living in truly horrific times, and for that reason, I refuse to back down.

They want to bombard us until we’re numb, and I refuse to let that happen.

They want to see us dead, and I will not give them the satisfaction.

I will seek out hope, and I will cling to it. I will share it, expand it, make it my purpose.

They see the world in terms of who is deserving: deserving of healthcare, deserving of shelter, deserving of nourishment.

They don't believe anyone deserves it. I know everyone does.

Even them. Even the motherfuckers who should know better.

Because they are people, too, and in each of them, a universe.

It is the nexus of power at which I will direct my anger, my hatred. The State that has failed us. The politicians that enabled it. The wealthy that bankrolled it.

They want us in despair, they want us desperate, they want us fighting among ourselves so they get let off the hook.

That is not the future I am fighting for. They will not get off that easy.

The future I envision involves justice, true justice, radical justice, the kind that will reverberate across generations.

And the future will ask, "How did they let this go on so long? Was it ignorance? Was it hatred? Was it intrinsic evil?"

And they will understand it was all of those things and none of them. It was supremely wrong, and it was also not unique. It was "logical," even though it defied logic. It was "human nature," even though humans were not naturally evil.

It was deliberate.

I will survive in spite; I will survive for revenge.

My revenge will be that I will love my friends and my community and leave the world better than I found it.

And they cannot stop me.

Because I refuse to let these motherfuckers win.